Things are coming together.

Slowly.

But they are coming together.

I feel like I am out of the energy groove. I haven’t been noticing much lately when it comes to synchronicities and I definitely haven’t had anyone new coming into my life who enjoys talking energy.

However, just because things aren’t coming in the typical way doesn’t mean they aren’t coming. This is the way the universe works, after all.

The last month, I have felt less magic. The shift started when I decided to become grounded. Since, everything has continued to be very “earth-plane,” or I was perceiving it that way. In this moment, I feel excited because I can see the bigger picture of what the universe is sending me in contrast to my usual sensitivity to small shifts, or breadcrumbs. I’m starting to get a view of the loaf, if even just a slice of bread.

The newness of being able to see the larger plan and then the pieces moving into place feels…comfortable. I am calm. I am accepting, more so than when I was seeing only all of the magical subtleties. Decisions feel easier.

It felt before as if there was something blocking me from seeing the whole. Historically, I’ve had this tendency, which was related to a poorly integrated hands pulling reflex (it can be seen when you pull a baby up by their arms into sitting and they tuck their chin), and I’m now realizing that my shift in perspective is directly related to a small amount of integration over the past month, of this reflex and a few others.

I had been working on these reflexes for a long time, but in my recent work, I did it differently. Before I was moving through the correct patterns actively, but not really focusing on the right way. My attention was on what felt wrong about it. As I practiced this time, I waited for my body to respond, instead of responding consciously.

I grabbed my opposite thumb, arm outstretched, and pulled my thumb away, stretching the arm holding on. I waited. My arm pulled back on my thumb. I didn’t have to do anything. My brain read the cue and responded appropriately.

Since, I’ve only practiced a few times. The idea of working smarter rather than harder applies here. I worked very hard for two years to improve my reflex expression and now I worked correctly by allowing instead of doing, and my body understood easily. I am not surprised. My life is a quest to learn to allow instead of do.

So now, I can see a bigger picture. The last month I’ve felt like I was off track. I was choosing to do what I wanted instead of what my intuition said. It turns out, that I did everything exactly in the way that best supports the current version of me. There was an issue I hadn’t foreseen and the universe led me in such a way to set me up to be open and prepared mentally for the challenge that arose before knowing about it. It was so gentle.

I visited my friend in Italy, then went to Stuttgart. At some point during that trip, I let go of outcomes and settled into a state of feeling more peace. I felt less pushed by my inner self to do something or to move. The feeling that had driven me for months had just dissipated. Odd.

I came to Italy to see my family and gained some new perspective. Where I’m going and what I am doing are not so important. The company is important. Everything I choose is right. I feel that I’ll be traveling longer than I anticipated, so it feels important to take steps to be totally free to do that.

I haven’t made any moves to put the plan the universe set up for me into action, so I can’t write about it yet, but I can say that everything has fallen into place exactly as it needed to. I know it will continue to do that. This time is a time for rest and to build more of a foundation and I can see it happening with my new ability to view everything, including myself.

I’ve also noticed that energy is still moving for me. My body is having new sensations and experiencing changing energy. And although I haven’t met anyone new to talk energy with or to learn from (in the way I usually receive it), I was able to have this experience with my brother and friends I already have. We were able to share and build our foundations of what we believe and perceive together, instead of the usual practice of me doing it alone. I can see a small group of us forming, and by us, I mean those of us who are in the process of remembering.

I was having trouble deciding what to do next and where to go (in the past) and now I have four good options for where to go after my upcoming plans. My next assignment: learn how to choose what I want!

So, from the broad perspective, the things I need are coming to me in exactly the right timing. My attention may not be as focused on the magical subtleties right now, but I know I’ll find the middle soon.