“I don’t know what to do. I just want to kiss her.”

It’s so nice having close friends; the kind that will call you several times in 3 days even though they are on vacation in another country climbing mountains and parasailing over crystal blue lakes with their other friends.

The most recent call was inspired by a sudden shift in the energy of a friendship she had had for years. After attending a spiritual retreat with her friend and sitting in such elevated energy, she could suddenly sense the soul of her friend in a way she never had. The manifestation of this new ability to connect and sense had been overwhelming and…come in an unexpected form. She became wildly attracted to her.

It brought me back to when I met one of my twin flames on the first day of my backpacking trip. After four days of being very platonic walking buddies, our souls connected, or I connected to ‘another part of my soul’, through a manual therapy and energetic healing technique I had been ‘receiving’ (spirit was giving me little bits of the ability to heal in this way over several months) around that time.

I remember a friend saying one day several months into my trip, that she enjoyed connecting to people’s souls when she did Akashic Readings. I remember feeling disappointed that I didn’t know how to connect to people on such a level and at the same time inspired to have extracted a method from her perspective of how I could heal on a deeper level. Reflecting now, I was already connecting to souls. That’s how I accidentally fell in love with my twin flame. (Well, really, awakened latent love)

It happened in a flash. As I cradled her head, with images of frogs and the same blonde woman she saw in her own mind coming to me/us, her body led me to move her in particular ways. I felt no different than other times I’d done my therapy work.

I released my hands from her head. She looked like she needed rest to process the changes. I recorded the experience, like usual, in language a scientist would use to take notes on a chemical reaction, but as if the reactants were actors.

“unwinding -> trunk extension -> it wanted to extend cervical spine -> tried trunk extension -> put gold on shelf, she didn’t want to look, she didn’t want chocolate so tried a frog. Didn’t want to look -> unwound more. Put in TLR extension (frog?) -> connected L side T5-6 to C1, made energy line, held it -> saw spirit that needed to go…”

I joined her out in the small pond on the property of the Albergue somewhere in the Portuguese countryside, which coincidentally was filled with frogs. She looked different; brighter, clearer, more at peace…and beautiful? I hopped in the water and turned to face her where she sat on the dock. Something was happening. I was feeling calmer and more open myself. Were we flirting with each other?

As the evening proceeded, I watched us as if outside my body. We were suddenly so close. I could feel her from a distance. There was a romantic dance happening between us.

In the days that followed, this lightly swirling cloud of bliss turned into a burning fire of a connection so intense that I could barely sleep. What was happening? I suddenly loved her so deeply.

After months of triggering each other as twin flames do, both frequently receiving clear intuitive messages that we weren’t meant to be together in this way, I finally realized what had happened. I had mistaken the intensity of the twin flame connection for romantic love.

But as my friend shared her experience on her trip, claiming to now understand the bonfire I had been burning in months ago, I realized that what happened wasn’t related to us being twin flames at all.

Our souls had connected deeply, and I at least, had never experienced this kind of thing.

That’s not true, I had, but I had not been conscious and of a higher vibration the past times. In an unconscious state my soul wasn’t able to communicate with my human body to help it understand the feeling and process it as what it was.

This time, my physical self tried desperately to equate this massive influx of energy to something it knew already from my past human experiences. Connecting with a soul on this level manifested as deep love, sprinkled (or more than sprinkled) with a deep desire for physical connection.

My friend was experiencing the same thing currently. We laughed about it as she squirmed sitting in the feeling she had also ‘never had before’. As we made sense of it together, I realized that I had encountered this feeling again very recently.

I had done another healing some days ago. I followed the client’s body where it asked me to work. I could feel her emotions and I could sense something bigger was there. In the end, it was something significant that she gained freedom from. We both cried.

This morning I saw a picture of her and that same feeling started to rise around me and within me that I had felt on that bright July day in the frog pond in Portugal. Back then I had been staring at an Angel (per Akashic Records). This time, I wasn’t sure.

It wasn’t until my friend and I talked that I realized that this now significantly softer feeling of love was an after-effect or side-effect or sign (?) of having connected with someone’s soul.

This is what that feels like?! It was so subtle now.

I would say that sensing all things etheric is indirect and comes very subtly for me when related to other people. I didn’t understand that what I sensed was something that wasn’t a common thing to perceive. When I heard my friend months ago describing what connecting to a soul was like, I could hear her face lighting up in her voice. My other, more scientific friend, describes the event in great detail. And here I am, hardly aware.

I know the dampened sense is a gift of mine, not a deficit, (what would I do if every time I connected in this way I ended up “on fire” for days?) and I imagine there are many others out there who are the same.

Energy is subtle. You sense it how you need to sense it. If you aren’t sensing it as someone else describes it, don’t worry. Your intuition and the universe will give you the clues you need to calibrate.

In the meantime, if you are looking for help understanding how your intuition speaks to you, check out my website and reach out. www.alanabencivengo.com.

Happy sensing!