We come to earth from wherever we are from: source, the Pleiades, a starship in deep space, some speck of dust in a worm hole several dimensions separated from here (I don’t know if that’s possible, but anything is possible, so why not). We come for various reasons, but always we have in common the desire to experience what it is like to be human. The thing that separates us from all of the other beings in the universe, in theory, is…a painfully vast range of emotions, ever-changing, shifting and ultimately confusing.

Emotions are powerful. They stand, dangling an irresistible carrot of “earth experience” in front of us. Towards things that seem good for us, and things that are in reality extremely harmful to us we are easily persuaded under their spell. No matter where you fall on the spectrum, the ability to become addicted to them and trust fall right into abandon of your best interests is ever present. Your whole life can become victim to them, as you flit and flutter about following, chasing and craving whatever seems to fill your cup (for the moment).

Pain, despair, suffering, fear, rage, envy are easier to become trapped in. The are addicting too. They present as such a blinding force that for a moment, in the height of them, something cracks and you separate from yourself. Light Being watching (or escaping) human. The emotion swallows the moment and everything else present with it. You’re blinded, thrown off-kilter but still, for one second you feel completely alive. To be human, to be a spirit having agreed to a human life, to feel alive as one is to have emotions, and yes, all of them.

The problem is that most multidimensional beings forget who they were before they became human for a time and why they came. Sometimes they get stuck here for many lives. These emotions become them; braided between the fibers of their muscles, nerves, connective tissue and all, buzzing just a little louder than their inner knowing of the reality that emotions are just an experience.

Emotions aren’t all bad (none are bad, it’s just a phrase). Beings leave home…likely a place of consistently pure love, for…this state of flux. The dynamic situation you find yourself in has great depth, whether you choose to look at it or not. There is a chance to harness the energy of this great spectrum, master it and emerge fully able to make a free choice whether you embrace sadness or joy, or resist it. Or even, to let it sink you or empower you.

Can you separate yourself consciously from the thick, swirling fog of how you feel? Just one step back. From there can you tell why it is happening?

Emotions are signals and great teachers. The ‘why’ can give you so much more than the ‘what’, in this case (and most others). Seeking why your emotion is happening can give you peace and control over whether it swallows you or you are able to turn it into a tool for growth. It’s not your entitlement to have them and express them, it is your gift to be able to observe them and learn from them.

They are scary yes (and also beautiful?), but in reality, they can’t kill you, so nothing happens if you decide to embrace and let them course through your being uninhibited and uncontrolled…they are just energy. If we are here to learn how to work with energy in 3D, then part of our purpose here is to learn to work with emotions.

I can’t speak much of joy. I’ve had moments: being flipped upside down country dancing, having novel experiences while traveling that I falsely consider to be nothing out of the ordinary until much later, the fairy-tale feeling of learning to love a new person, playing with kittens, the rare crying, gut-cramping laugh with friends, being in the forest alone; but nothing consistent.

I feel like I’m far from the pure love that I came from…maybe you can relate. Right now, I’m a master of neutral and content (but not the kind that will ever keep me from reaching for more), which has taken me an effort to achieve. I felt inspired to write today because of loneliness. And, I miss the beautiful, painful, freedom-filled early days of my backpacking trip. Somehow the loneliness of traveling is more appealing than the loneliness of being stationary.

I haven’t felt crushed like this, a failure like this, in a long while.

Even as tears flowed, I felt the light being, my inner wisdom, me, step back to give the emotion space. It’s taken practice, but now it’s become natural to be the observer when the full strength of my emotions make their rare strike. You just need to see and you just need to float; to not be dragged into the whirlpool that they are. Know, if you feel them instead of avoid them and let them have their own life, you can learn. You’ll gain clarity and then freedom.

I watched and wondered, how uncomfortable will I have to get to follow my dreams?

Emotions can trap you, but they can also inspire you to free yourself. It just depends on whether you choose to make them your comfort and captor, or if you embrace them as your teacher and use them to bring you into inspired action.

Good luck out there Starseeds. There’s beauty waiting for you…part of you will always know this.